Untimely Rapport
My Dearest,
Just to bring us up to current. Hiphop decided to call me out of the blue 1 day about a month ago & ask when he can visit. I told him, "whenever you'd like, my doors are always open." But they arent as open as he'd like.. Nor as open as I'd hoped once he decided to come around. But I've come to realize that Hiphop comes around when his relationships goes South. What a pitty (So desu ne)!
red & I have put off dating since his project had ended more than a year ago. It was his project that kept us together bc he would have meetings in my town. Now that that's over, we are over. But we are still friends. Since then, I have met another in my own town (finally!) that seems to compliment my personality & vice versa. He is elfont & he is beautiful. The only problem is shortly before elfont, there was briefly lala.. Eventhough lala was never a relationship option, I cling to his ever-changing heart & melansholic prose. I can not imagine how i have gotten this point w/ him. I was a mere spectator of his arts for a year before we met, & even when we'd talk brfiefly before then (oh, & it was brief!), i barely got 2 words of recognition. But once we met, it was a whirlwind of passion & exstacy! ...& here is where the delima lies. I remember meeting elfont & finding an enormously striking parallel to lala! Not that lala is my dream guy or anything, but sometimes I feel like I began a relationship w/ elfont bc of my preference for lala. But now that i've mused more & more on it, i feel that elfont has made himself independent within the casings of my heart. He truely is, I think, the vision of my counterpart. Now, if you ask me if he feels the same? We will see..... & then I will have a more timley rapport.
Until then.........
[note: red, Hiphop, lala, and elfont have been changed to protect their current existence]
Just to bring us up to current. Hiphop decided to call me out of the blue 1 day about a month ago & ask when he can visit. I told him, "whenever you'd like, my doors are always open." But they arent as open as he'd like.. Nor as open as I'd hoped once he decided to come around. But I've come to realize that Hiphop comes around when his relationships goes South. What a pitty (So desu ne)!
red & I have put off dating since his project had ended more than a year ago. It was his project that kept us together bc he would have meetings in my town. Now that that's over, we are over. But we are still friends. Since then, I have met another in my own town (finally!) that seems to compliment my personality & vice versa. He is elfont & he is beautiful. The only problem is shortly before elfont, there was briefly lala.. Eventhough lala was never a relationship option, I cling to his ever-changing heart & melansholic prose. I can not imagine how i have gotten this point w/ him. I was a mere spectator of his arts for a year before we met, & even when we'd talk brfiefly before then (oh, & it was brief!), i barely got 2 words of recognition. But once we met, it was a whirlwind of passion & exstacy! ...& here is where the delima lies. I remember meeting elfont & finding an enormously striking parallel to lala! Not that lala is my dream guy or anything, but sometimes I feel like I began a relationship w/ elfont bc of my preference for lala. But now that i've mused more & more on it, i feel that elfont has made himself independent within the casings of my heart. He truely is, I think, the vision of my counterpart. Now, if you ask me if he feels the same? We will see..... & then I will have a more timley rapport.
Until then.........
[note: red, Hiphop, lala, and elfont have been changed to protect their current existence]
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