one bizarre after another

i wonder sometimes if the thoughts in my head are caused by others. empathy, i mean. or something like it. forenstance, if a person meditates on something enough, like say, you concentrate on basketball to become a better player. i mean actually practicing in your brain. making up scenarios, overcoming obsticles, that sort of thing. if thought about long and intently enough, you just may increase your game by at least 25%. so what i'm getting at is, if a person constantly dreams and thinks of winning a person over...or parhaps even just screwing their brains out constantly. could that effect the other person? i mean, could it possibly work as telepathy? a strong enough power to effect that other person? to make that person be the recieving end of the message? or maybe it wouldnt effect the other person if physical contact were never made.

i dont really know where i'm going with this, but the thought has always occoured to me that i could possibly have a person or thought on my mind only because that other person is thinking intently on me. i suppose i'll mention that i dreamed of hiphop again last night. an actual interactive dream, not one of those crappy observation dreams. and i wasnt even thinking about him yesterday. but out of the blue, i'm having a dream of him and life is peachy keen. and it was just bizarre.

my life just feels like one bizarre moment after another. full of confusion and questions, and answers i had years ago that changed...

and perhaps the most bizarre of them all has been an e-mail from a pal i've never met. one of those "friend survey" types of e-mails. and not the regular ones you see floating around, but one with questions like, "WHICH FINGER IS YOUR FAVORITE?" and "IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS
WITH YOU?" prbably fucking not. i'd probably screw myself, then kill myslef (the other self).

but anyhoo, more bizarres another time.

[note: hiphop has been changed to protect their current existence]