sorry for the wait...
Hey guys, I'm sorry it's been nearly a month since my last post. It' just that nothing much has been happening. No dramas really, nothing acceptionally exciting. Perhaps this is just a stand still until somethign more exciting happens. I'm used to my life being a stand still, and I miss it.
Had some weird dreams lately.
The night before last I kept dreaming that there were cockroaches all over the place, on the floor, chasing me and being agressive. Not the usual brown ones in your house, but the riddiculously huge black ones that hiss from madagascar or someother random place. Anyhow, I kept waking up and telling myself to stop dreaming about them. But as soon as I closed my eyes, here they come again, crawling on the floor. Being agressive. Then the night before that I dreamed my BF was some well known hunk of a guy. He looked like my boyfriend sometimes but was taller and more muscular than my BF. A lot more nicer as well. And he was some sort of mechanic or something, someone who liked to create with his hands. Anyhow, we kept trying to get it on under a boarkwarlk or picinic tables. And everytime I'd get into the mood and we'd start to kiss, someone would discover us and we'd have to play it off and move to another location. weird, eh? And I think we were trying for a baby. Very disturbing! But the dream I had last night was of he hanging out in a nicely lit hotel room or apartment or something. I came with my BF but he wasn't around. But I wasn't alone either. His friend Indy (who's a real person BTW) was there and we were just talking about everyday things. Then all of a sudden he kisses me. Not a peck, or a makeout, just a small single smooth. And I stop talking and think, okay that was weird. Then I keep on talking and he does it again, and then a third time. And by this third time I'm wondering why he keeps giving me these small teases and doesn't just make out with me. But he goes on talking about something we were having a conversation about, as if it was no big deal and only wanted to "try it". Nothing more. So I kinda woke up with a broken heart.
Jesus! I swear I'm way too vulnerable in my 'special' time of the month.
[note: Indy has been changed to protect their current existence]
Had some weird dreams lately.
The night before last I kept dreaming that there were cockroaches all over the place, on the floor, chasing me and being agressive. Not the usual brown ones in your house, but the riddiculously huge black ones that hiss from madagascar or someother random place. Anyhow, I kept waking up and telling myself to stop dreaming about them. But as soon as I closed my eyes, here they come again, crawling on the floor. Being agressive. Then the night before that I dreamed my BF was some well known hunk of a guy. He looked like my boyfriend sometimes but was taller and more muscular than my BF. A lot more nicer as well. And he was some sort of mechanic or something, someone who liked to create with his hands. Anyhow, we kept trying to get it on under a boarkwarlk or picinic tables. And everytime I'd get into the mood and we'd start to kiss, someone would discover us and we'd have to play it off and move to another location. weird, eh? And I think we were trying for a baby. Very disturbing! But the dream I had last night was of he hanging out in a nicely lit hotel room or apartment or something. I came with my BF but he wasn't around. But I wasn't alone either. His friend Indy (who's a real person BTW) was there and we were just talking about everyday things. Then all of a sudden he kisses me. Not a peck, or a makeout, just a small single smooth. And I stop talking and think, okay that was weird. Then I keep on talking and he does it again, and then a third time. And by this third time I'm wondering why he keeps giving me these small teases and doesn't just make out with me. But he goes on talking about something we were having a conversation about, as if it was no big deal and only wanted to "try it". Nothing more. So I kinda woke up with a broken heart.
Jesus! I swear I'm way too vulnerable in my 'special' time of the month.
[note: Indy has been changed to protect their current existence]
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